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1. |
LIFE of the party
03:08
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I said I'm cool off that
Cool off that
Cool off that
Cool off that
I said I'm cool off that that that
I said I'm cool off I'm cool off that that that
I said I'm said I'm cool, cool off that
I said I'm cool off that
All of my life
I never been one for attention
When I'm in the spotlight
I fake it like I live it
Work better in dark nights
Similar to the villains
You can't tell a dog bite
Then turn around and kill it
I'm spilling the blood of all my enemies
Metaphorically
I'm in love with solitude
Keep your presence distant from me
I'm appalled at accusations
I heard that they speak on me
Tell em set it free
They bold out my vision
Now let me see
Why they wanna see me make the bottles pop
Man they really wanna see me spark it up
I started explaining but I had to stop
Truthfully and honestly I had enough
I'm not the life of parties
So why they keep telling me to pull up to events
Really started sounding like they lacking common sense
I'mma tell you now so I don't have to again
I said I'm cool off that
Cool off that
Cool off that
Cool off that
I said I'm cool off that that that
I said I'm cool off I'm cool off that that that
I said I'm said I'm cool, cool off that
I said I'm cool off that
My backpack rapping was slacking
I'm tallying to a milli
I'm passively moving pennies
Enough to pay the bills
Getting older ditched the thought of signing deals
Made a label just to fund the dreams
Now they feeling real
The music don't make no money
Funny that it's still here
Disappear when anxiety start turning into fear
Since they just wanna see the videos and the shows
As opposed to planting a single rose for the flows
Why they wanna see me make the bottles pop
Man they really wanna see me spark it up
I started explaining but I had to stop
Truthfully and honestly I had enough
I'm not the life of parties
So why they keep telling me to pull up to events
Really started sounding like they lacking common sense
I'mma tell you now so I don't have to again
Please let me make my decisions for me
You do not know what is best for me
How can you act like you did it for me
Honestly sounding more selfish to me
Please let me make my decisions for me
You do not know what is best for me
How can you act like you did it for me
Honestly sounding more selfish to me
Please let me make my decisions for me
You do not know what is best for me
How can you act like you did it for me
Honestly sounding more selfish to me
Please let me make my decisions for me
You do not know what is best for me
How can you act like you did it for me
Honestly sounding more selfish to me
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2. |
killJOY
02:58
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I can't be myself when they eyes on me
I can't get no help when the knives on me
Maybe this is everything that I'm gone be
I can't let them kill the joy inside of me
People been all on my neck
And they questioning every decision I make
Honestly sounding like people I trusted are openly starting to hate
Failure to failure I'm keeping my chin up but my heart been starting to break
Music my solace from intrusive thinking
It's feeling like I'll never shake
You do not get it
Mental disrupted
My spirit was splinted
My lyrics were printed
In all of my books
A reminder for every day I was tormented
But now that I'm back I don't plan to leave
I'm doing all that I can for me
Finally know what I want to be
Free of the shackles that haunted me
I can't be myself when they eyes on me
I can't get no help when the knives on me
Maybe this is everything that I'm gone be
I can't let them kill the joy inside of me
Funny how I'm the blueprint
But they don't wanna hear my two cents
It's always some issue
What's Cameron doing
Just don't be surprised if I lose it
That's not to mention my personal struggles with everything else on my plate
Back to the studio
Steering my focus from how
I'm getting stood up on a date
Still battle demons that don't let me move from the feeling that I was too late
Imma be honest I hated the church cause I felt the connection was fake
Support coming far in between but just know that I'm bout to do all that it takes
Sad and I'm angry but also dismissive
Cause most of the love, it was fake
It's true that I'm bitter
But I cannot be a quitter
I try my best to remember the time
So many songs, can't remember my lines
My dedication been one of a kind
My aspirations, no limit in mind
My generation ain't new to the grind
Most of these rappers talk more than they kids
All disrespect cause you know what it is
I can't be myself when they eyes on me
I can't get no help when the knives on me
Maybe this is everything that I'm gone be
I can't let them kill the joy inside of me
Killjoy
Killjoy
Killjoy
Killjoy
Killjoy
Killjoy
Killjoy
Killjoy
I can't let em kill it
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3. |
SELFish desires
03:12
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I still want more than this
I still want more than this
I want you all to myself
But I'm in control of this
I still want more than this
I still want more than this
That's my desire
Am I strong enough to shoulder this, like
I'm selfish
Yeah, I know it's true
I'm selfish, yeah
But how bout you
I'm selfish
Yeah, I know it's true
I'm selfish, yeah
But so are you
All of my wants
All of my needs
All of my lies
All of my truths
And all of my deeds
Man, they been on my mind
Had requests that I had to decline
Feel like I'm a lazy boy
So pardon me if I decide to recline
Why do I seek the love for days
Am I dropping the songs for plays
My ulterior motives be having me questioning
Every wrong I've made
Like if she was my lemonade
Then maybe I'm Jay Z
Maybe it's crazy
To think I control if the populace hate me
Like all of this cancelling
A part of our nature is fail and then turn it to growth
Take a look deep inside of yourself
You know you ain't perfect
But we'll never know
Cause you only gon show what you want us to see
We don't know who you'd turn out to be
If all of your selfishness
Was on display for all to see
I still want more than this
I still want more than this
I want you all to myself
But I'm in control of this
I still want more than this
I still want more than this
That's my desire
Am I strong enough to shoulder this, like
I'm selfish
Yeah, I know it's true
I'm selfish, yeah
But how bout you
I'm selfish
Yeah, I know it's true
I'm selfish, yeah
But so are you
Yeah I'm selfish with it
Won't leave no guesses with it
I'm trynna live life in abundance
If God bless me with it
Don't Johnny Test me
Cause I been in the lab
Is it selfish
To plot on when I want to collab
Then pick the best talent
Then open the conversation
And makes friends with the best artists
From all across the nation
Well that depends, what's my endgame
It won't be no way home after my pen change
This is a tragedy
It's sad to see
The history kept in my gallery
I been collecting from every corner
The coroner built a menagerie
We all selfish and we have our own desires
Just be mindful that one day it's gon expire
I still want more than this
I still want more than this
I want you all to myself
But I'm in control of this
I still want more than this
I still want more than this
That's my desire
Am I strong enough to shoulder this, like
I'm selfish
Yeah, I know it's true
I'm selfish, yeah
But how bout you
I'm selfish
Yeah, I know it's true
I'm selfish, yeah
But so are you
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4. |
t(I)eam
03:54
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Your life will change when all of the pride is slain
We linked until we sever our bond of chains
It's hard to change and still remain the same
To grow just means to succumb to pain
Is it pain in death, no
The pain's in dying
The pain is failing once you started trying
The pain is smiling when inside you crying
Refrain from checking when I know you lying
My eyes don't blink
My instincts think
My heart gon sink
From sneaky links
And all that past stories never told
You not a champ but your trophies gold
Manipulations key to be the "I"
Plot and scheme will you tell me why
You kill dreams like you getting paid for it
Built the team and now I gotta pay for it
Knew you were here by my side
And thought that you'd stay all my life
Hurts but I guess that it's true
Shoulda known it's what you do
Cause there ain't no I in team
Unless it's you
There ain't no I in team
Unless it's you
To be a team means you need to trust
Somethings missing when it comes to us
You talk the talk but we don't discuss
The actions taken that we must adjust
I confess that I was afraid
That our love was a part of your charade
I was a guest but I overstayed
You a player so you made a trade
I was at peace alone
I thought that we had grown
Challenges happen but I never try to police the tone
Now that the coop is flown
Now that the truth is known
The damage is permanent you won't admit that you in the wrong
Yeah
Shoulda saw it coming then
You would step on anybody
In the way when you trynna win
Knew you were here by my side
And thought that you'd stay all my life
Hurts but I guess that it's true
Shoulda known it's what you do
Cause there ain't no I in team
Unless it's you
There ain't no I in team
Unless it's you
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5. |
CHAIN gang
03:50
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Pardon me if this is cynical
I know that this isn't my usual hype
My patience is taking a flight
Seeing the views that I'll never see
Cause all that I ever see on the screen
Is ignorant people with nothing to bring to me
They telling me stop all that smiling
I laugh in they face cause it don't mean a thing to me
Wow
Cam you gotta slow down
People miserable
They only goal is snatching your crown
Late nights hear the ghosts of slaves chant in my town
The price for my life getting bagged by the pound
I miss the days
When I was safe outside my home
Turn on the news
A couple kids aint make it home
Due to rapists or the killers or our very own government
Profits tied to crime so they never gonna govern it
My speech impediment is that I don't tell lies
A foreign language used to strip the wool from over your eyes
It's funny no one know your name during the years that you tried
But you a world wide star from the minute that you die
Chains gon clink as long as eyes gotta blink
Chains gon clink as long as minds gotta think
Chains gon clink as long as rappers bleed ink
And Earth need peace like black men need shrinks
It's the truth
Just a number to the man in the suit
Just a number to the man in the suit
Just a number to the man in the suit
We just a number to them
They back outside
Like nothing's changed
Blacked out rides
When they snatching chains
They take lives
But they don't explain
The cycle of hate
They just fanning the flames
You kill mine
I kill yours
You kill mine
I kill yours
You kill mine
I kill yours
You kill mine
I kill yours
How many people do they gotta kill
At this point they don't wanna understand it
Yeah
The more you know the worse you gonna feel
Some respect what I'm finally demanding
Yeah
How many people do they gotta kill
At this point they don't wanna understand it
Yeah
The more you know the worse you gonna feel
Some respect what I'm finally demanding
Yeah
Chains gon clink as long as eyes gotta blink
Chains gon clink as long as minds gotta think
Chains gon clink as long as rappers bleed ink
And Earth need peace like black men need shrinks
It's the truth
Just a number to the man in the suit
Just a number to the man in the suit
Just a number to the man in the suit
We just a number to them
Chain chain go away
Don't come back another day
Chain chain go away
Don't come back another day
Chain chain go away
Don't come back another day
Chain chain go away
Don't come back another day
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6. |
disCOURAGEd
02:50
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I just want to see
If you can get it, get it right, get it right with me
I got the ticket
Take a flight, take a flight with me
Don't be scared
It's just one time
We do this one time
She told me
I just want to see
If you can get it, get it right, get it right with me
I got the ticket
Take a flight, take a flight with me
Don't be scared
It's just one time
Just do this one time
She got a way with words
I sit back and observe
She motivate or deprecate
Her love be taking turns
I gotta let it burn
As I start to usher in the truth
It's like I never learn my lesson
When it comes to loving you
I cannot settle down
When you always seeking different crowns
Feel like Will
Gotta settle up with more than seven pounds
Loud and proud of your faults without a motive to change
But shame me for reservations of taking off in your plane
I just want to see
If you can get it, get it right, get it right with me
I got the ticket
Take a flight, take a flight with me
Don't be scared
It's just one time
We do this one time
She told me
I just want to see
If you can get it, get it right, get it right with me
I got the ticket
Take a flight, take a flight with me
Don't be scared
It's just one time
Just do this one time
Nobody pressing me
Pray for the people unknowingly
Adding more fuel to the flame
People that's testing me, jesterly
Don't entertain the words of a gossiping lame
We are not one in the same
Progressing, I'm destined
I'm stamping my name on the game
After I say this they probably gone hate me but
But most of you suck cause you chasing the fame
I gotta chain it's plain
Don't wanna explain the name
They targeting me
Feel like I'm stuck in a web
I told Mary Jane
I'm sick of them bothering me
Reading the comments online
Been having me acting a little unconfidently
Now that I'm back on your necks
I'm not stopping
I'm dropping and dropping it constantly
How'd I let it make me switch up on my goals
How'd I let it make me switch up on my roles
Know I been on fire but they wanna see me cold
My disco been stacking but they wanna see me fold
How's it my fault that you dropping too slow
If you worried bout yourself then maybe you'd grow
I let the words of many men start discouraging me
But now I'm focused on becoming who I wanted to be
I just want to see
If you can get it, get it right, get it right with me
I got the ticket
Take a flight, take a flight with me
Don't be scared
It's just one time
We do this one time
She told me
I just want to see
If you can get it, get it right, get it right with me
I got the ticket
Take a flight, take a flight with me
Don't be scared
It's just one time
Just do this one time
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7. |
nEXt time
02:49
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Yeah you can pin it on me
If it makes you feel better about yourself
You looking for someone to blame
It's me and it's you and it's nobody else
I coulda sworn that I told myself
I coulda sworn that I warned myself
That love isn't in my equation
I'm human
It's times that I'm bored
When I'm by myself
Switched it up
And patched relationships and made amends
Why'd I think that it'd be better
If I loved one of my friends
That's a mix for disaster
I don't want what's coming after this
Decency and sympathy the price for me to caption this
Next time
I'll do this all on my own
Next time
I won't let you into my home
Next time
I'll be careful of who's more than friends
Next time
I won't let this happen again again again
How many times can hearts break
How many lives can love take
How many lies
How many tears
How many tries does it take
For me to learn my lesson
I've been dreading my test
How can you love somebody else
When you, yourself, is depressed
How can you say it lasts forever
We don't live that long
You said through thick and thin
I guess you got your measurements wrong
Is it my mind that's playing tricks
Or was it you all along
I guess we going back to the days
Where we're both alone
Next time
I'll do this all on my own
Next time
I won't let you into my home
Next time
I'll be careful of who's more than friends
Next time
I won't let this happen again again again
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8. |
HOPEless
03:19
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This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
It's poetic
The way that my justice lacks
You Janet jacked
A sliver of my faith in life
If you slither like a snake
I'll assume you bite
The hand that feeds you love
Does it make it right
For me to give up when the times are difficult
When the words are just that
And arguments trivial
Hopelessness is not in my nature
I move with a plan on the scope of glaciers
Not too many matching with the energy I be on
I been heating up you'd think I'm running out of Freon
They don't understand it so they treat me like a peon
When it's said and done they gonna see me as a phenom
Woah
It's over so you know I gotta go
You the type to tell
I'm the type that let it show
You'd end up in jail for the secrets that I know
If you won't set me free then the whistle gotta blow
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
You took everything I cared about
Then you, pulled up and you aired it out
They don't know you so they scared to doubt
Thoughts changed, I can tell when you start to pout
How you getting mad that your plan ain't work
That you did it for your man but your man ain't worth
Half the time that I wasted shoulda been imbursed
Now you struggle knowing that you shoulda been here first
I'm in my prime
Words ain't enough so I started to sign
Only two things that I put on the line
My hopes and my dreams, cause I can't make time
But, I'm realigned and I'm focused now
When you did what you did I was hopeless, how
I make my way back from the brink of death
Deep breath, take a minute and trust yourself
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it then I know what can make it stop
This gonna happen whether I want it to or not
If I can't avoid it, can't avoid it then make it stop
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9. |
sHELL of a man
04:00
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What I enjoyed in the past bring pain today
It may look like I'm living life but it's not the case
Look in the mirror I can't even see the smile on my face
Know I been breaking think it's time to replace
This shell of a man
Shell of a man
Shell of a man
Shell of a man
How can I look at myself and not notice the man that I'm starting to be
Why do I lie to my mama and tell her I'm thinking bout branching my family tree
I've been at peace all alone it's rare that I stop to let people get closer to me
Working too hard, been paving a lane for myself
It's the work that nobody will see
We can agree
All this is bigger than me
Man it's bigger than 1033
I can not wallow in pity, I'm next
And I don't care if the world disagree
Man, I don't even care if it's me
But I'm sparking the mind of the ones that'll change
I keep on dropping consistently cause I'm avoiding remembering pain
That left my brain stained
Hard resetting it with a flow change
Always carry proof of my failures in case my hopes aim
Away from the trajectory that I wanna land
Looked in the mirror and I only saw the shell of a man
Because my arms stayed open
The love been stolen
My heart stayed frozen
I'm feeling like they closing
Cause my arms stayed open
The love been stolen
My heart stayed frozen
As the shell of a man
What I enjoyed in the past bring pain today
It may look like I'm living life but it's not the case
Look in the mirror I can't even see the smile on my face
Know I been breaking think it's time to replace
This shell of a man
Shell of a man
Shell of a man
Shell of a man
Am I me
Or am I
Just a personality
Built from all of the years
Of em back stabbing me
Noticed that
I don't hide from
Where the cameras be
My facade
Did it's job
Now it's just a better me
I'm to the point where people die and I don't have no reaction
Working on music the closest thing I get to satisfaction
Even feel guilty about the people who I've been attracted
My passion taxing no relaxing I don't know who I am
But I still break bread
And get taxed by Uncle Sam
My thoughts, my feelings
I just wanna get back to Cam
Don't wanna be broke no more
Don't wanna smile as a joke no more
Don't wanna die all alone
These days it feel like I don't have hope no more
It's true
What's a man to do
I wrote down my goals
And I only checked a few
I stopped making wishes
Since they never came true
I don't know where I'm going
Might as well enjoy the view
What I enjoyed in the past bring pain today
It may look like I'm living life but it's not the case
Look in the mirror I can't even see the smile on my face
Know I been breaking think it's time to replace
This shell of a man
Shell of a man
Shell of a man
Shell of a man
Am I just the shell of a man
Am I just the shell of a man
Am I just the shell of a man
Shell of a man that I used to be
Stayed open
Been stolen
Stayed frozen
They closing
Stayed open
Been stolen
Stayed frozen
They closing
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10. |
melancHOLY mélange
03:24
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Thank you God
I'm glad to see another day
I tried my best
But couldn't find another way
And I don't know if there's anything to say
But I'm so thankful
I'm so thankful
Thank you God
I'm glad to see another day
I tried my best
But couldn't find another way
And I don't know if there's anything to say
But I'm so thankful
I'm so thankful
It's been a minute since I stepped onto the stage of life
Not too many get a second chance to make it right
All this stressing something I been bringing on myself
I was too busy trynna focus on the game of wealth
But all that money still spend whether I'm living or gone
Good things take time building similar to Rome
Some say that's it's genetic, straight from the chromosomes
Many try to make it out I'm trynna level up my home
Been over the days of asking people for help
It's unfortunate I'm used to making moves by myself
That's not to say that I ain't grateful for my family every day
Lost myself during the journey, but I found my own way
Thank you God
I'm glad to see another day
I tried my best
But couldn't find another way
And I don't know if there's anything to say
But I'm so thankful
I'm so thankful
Thank you God
I'm glad to see another day
I tried my best
But couldn't find another way
And I don't know if there's anything to say
But I'm so thankful
I'm so thankful
How did little ole me get a blessing like this
Feel like Lilo when she prayed and started stunting like stitch
Call me David, you know I got Nani on my wish list
Sister and my sis in law eating shrimp at Ruth's chris
I know that I been reckless
I know that I was helpless
I know that God protect me from me
During depression
My goals linked to my lessons
My wrongs changing directions
My truth's for me alone
But it's time for my confession
From albums to the books to my very first film
I'm so proud of my creations but you want me feeling grim
If I'm fighting with my demons imma beat em like they HIM
Know my soul stone worth more than any other gem
Thank you God
I'm glad to see another day
I tried my best
But couldn't find another way
And I don't know if there's anything to say
But I'm so thankful
I'm so thankful
Thank you God
I'm glad to see another day
I tried my best
But couldn't find another way
And I don't know if there's anything to say
But I'm so thankful
I'm so thankful
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Cameron London Hampstead, North Carolina
Artist | Engineer | Founder of 1033 Records.
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